You know those days when you try to blame someone else for your bleh mood?
My personal bleh mood defined:
Going days/weeks/however long without facing my frustrations and emotions.
Trying to power through my weaknesses without really addressing them fully, but pushing them down so I can be perceived as strong and together (together and Mom, not synonymous, p.s.).
I was in a funk 2 days ago, again. Crap. I was fighting it, suppressing it, and secretly hoping God would SHIZAM a good attitude into my bones so I could be a good Mom and Wife. Easy way out for 1 please??!!
Nope. Drew and I had a date night last night and I was still lackadaisical, insecure, bleh.
After trying to blame him for my funk 16 times, he decided to speak truth. That it was ME who was in the funk, not him. (Gosh darn, he is pretty much ALWAYS absolutely right.)
Over a wonderful dinner at Seasons 52, one of our favorite spots, we finally put words to my funk...I was being selfish, egoistic, thinking of me and only me.
How can I get out of the house today?
How can I relate to my friends better?
How can I get my workout in?
How can I make money?
All I statements, not bad..but when they are ONLY things you are thinking about, you get consumed in nothing else but (drumroll please....) YOURSELF!
It's horrible, but it's so gosh darn easy to do. One of Satan's little tricks. Damn him.
I have not been serving, I have been thinking of ME.
I have not been calling my friends to see how they are doing, I have been thinking of ME.
My trials. My growth. My struggles. My time.
Bleh.
I'm done.
Time to be others-focused.
Thanks for letting me rant : )
JH
Jeniece Harris.
Hello, I'm Jeniece. I'm a wife to Andrew and a momma to baby Reese. I sing in the shower and laugh so loud, tp the point of scaring other people. Welcome to my life.
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Friday, July 13, 2012
That's What She Said
![]() |
At a dear friend of mine, Anna's wedding. |
![]() |
I got to hold precious little Olive! Angel's sweet baby |
![]() |
Hanging out at home. Very stunned by the whole thing, really. |
I am a words person.
Finding the perfect word to describe an emotion makes my day.
Hearing encouraging words from people I love shoots me to the moon with excitement.
Things people say, a huge deal. My love language is "Words of Affirmation." Shocker!
Yep, this is a total feminine quality of mine and I couldn't be more proud : )
Here is my first rendition of a series I am calling,
"And I Quote"
"I wish we could have her out here in the hallway so we could just watch her sleep." - My sweet husby referring to our daughter. Can he get any sweeter?
"We just ran out of iced coffee, can I get you something else...?!?!" -Barista at Starbucks after I had already paid. Whhhuuuut, I don't understand!!
"Can I use this 40% off Yelp check-in offer?"- Me, after I unashamedly (not really) checked in to "A Touch of Romance" Awkward.
"Everyone come in here and look at my chub thigh's!" -Reese
"Did you have any dreams?" -What my husband asks our 3.5 month old daughter every morning.
"Let's be more edgy" -Me to my husband.
"Should I start the coffee or hope she goes back to sleep?" - My husband at 6am when Reese started stirring.
"I don't like my bed! It's lonely and boring...hold me!"-Reese
"I must have not been looking!" - To the room of people who watched me walk straight into a screen last night. (Insert beat red face HERE)
Have a fab, fab day. Seriously, be fabulous.
JH
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Personal Training.
Hey y'all. Just a quick post to say I am 2 weeks into studying for my Personal Training certificate!
I am so excited to start this new chapter in my life, as it is something I have wanted to do forever.
Please give me advice if you have taken the test, I would love to hear from you guys.
JH
I am so excited to start this new chapter in my life, as it is something I have wanted to do forever.
Please give me advice if you have taken the test, I would love to hear from you guys.
JH
Being a Mama
If I told you I had this mom thing together and all dialed in, I would be lying.
Yesterday, I had a minor meltdown.
Let me explain.
4th of July...a holiday where the sun shines bright and everyone gets to show off their bronzed skin and fun holiday recipes. One of my favorite days over the past few years.
I woke up for the third day in a row with a fever due to my Mastitis (a breast infection). I decided to be "super mom" and put Reese in her cute red, white, and blue outfit and go join in on the fun.
She had a great nap so I figured it was perfect time to hit up a nearby block party.
We hadn't been there for 5 minutes when she was OVER it. I'm talking-screaming-fussing-body-jolting- over it. I attempted to smile through it as I engaged in conversation with my single friends as they sipped their cocktails. My body temperature was rising with every well meaning, "what's wrong with your baby, why is she so sad, poor thing!!??" comment.
I tried everything. Reese just didn't want to be there. I did, she didn't. I wanted to sip Margarita's and sit poolside. She wanted to be at home, playing on her mat.
We left soon after and I drove away. Fighting off my selfish feelings and trying to remember my priorities. I love this girl to death, but can't she just let Mama mingle with her friends for a few minutes?? I had a soul-searching next few minutes. Asking God to fill my heart with peace and contentment. To rid my heart of jealousy and selfishness.
We got home and I put Reese down on her mat, her favorite spot in the house. She smiled, she laughed, and I kissed her little cheeks. Laying on the ground with her, I decided it was okay for me to battle this. For me to process being a young mom when hardly any of my friends have even considered having kiddos. This is my life. God's timing, my life. My little girl, my life.
Being a Momma is a daily sacrifice, a daily peace offering, an unexplainable joy, It's funny how most great things require sacrifice, and time. Marriage, saving money, eating healthy, loving others, putting God first.
As I feel myself growing, I am learning. How to be selfless, how to be present in the moment and not wish for anything else.
Cheers to the growing process.
JH
Friday, June 29, 2012
Favorite Things- Reese Edition
Babies grow up too fast.
I mean like speedyracecarrapidlightining fast.
I literally stare at Reese's feet to make sure I don't miss them being so tiny!
Here are few of my favorite things about Reese right here and right now.
1. That she sleeps 11 hours a night. Selfish, yes, but one of my favorite things for sure!
2. How she looks when she's sleeping. I think she might be an angel on earth, seriously.
3. When she kicks her feet nonstop in utter joy when she's in the bath with the lights low.
4. How she loves being on her back with her singing friends, or baby Einstein Pandora blasting so she can dance.
5. She's sensitive and doesn't like new places. LOL. She will literally be straight faced for hours in a new place.
6. Her little body stretching when I pick her up in the morning.
Drew and I are eating this little girl up, honestly.
We are totally those parents who talk about their baby all the time. Sorry, we can't stop.
Write down a list about someone you love and what your favorite things are about them today. It's fun to see the list grow and change.
And here are some of this week's iPhone pix.
![]() |
Holding a sign for Daddy |
![]() |
Possibly my favorite day and favorite photo of my two loves. |
![]() |
She looks at me like this all day. I really do wonder what she's thinking sometimes haha. |
![]() |
The best view at Mimi and Papa's house. |
![]() |
THIS is a Wednesday night. Yes please. |
![]() |
Her morning glow. Cuddle time with Mama. |
JH
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Thanks, Mom.
Mom.
It's not until now that I can say this with understanding and weight.
It's not until now that I can say this with understanding and weight.
Thank you.
For bathing me, and making sure to get under my neck. A hundred times over.
For holding me when I was getting sick, or when I was just feeling sad. A hundred times over.
For giving up your time with your girlfriends so I could get my nap. A hundred times over.
For laughing with me when I first learned to laugh. A hundred times over.
For hugging me when I needed it and telling me to "go for it".. A hundred times over.
For singing to me while I fell asleep. A hundred times over.
For praying for me. For letting me go. Letting me learn. A hundred times over.
Being a Mom is full of challenges, and you made the most of it. A hundred times over.
Thank you.
Boom. Mama rules. Love that lady.
JH
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Google History
Does anyone else use Google more than they blink?
...."Hold on, let me check...(frantically enter ...what time does the sun set?....when does summer begin?...best meatball recipe...)..and viola! Instant gratification. Sound familiar?
So here it is, my Google search history for the past 72 hours, along with an attempt for an explanation. I didn't skip any, promise.
(Check yours, it's pretty telling..and hilarious!)
"Sean Lowe"- anyone who watches Bachelorette has googled this name. Next Bachelor anyone??
"Bachelorette recap"- Yes, I watched it, but I LOVE those hilarious sarcastic recaps (and spoilers) :)
"Pro bono"- Definitely knew what this meant in a past life, but had to google it before I used it confidently in a conversation.
"Exercises for 3 month old baby"- Needed to see if there are any fun ways to make little Reese as strong as she can be!
"Luke Bryan, Drunk on You"- I'm officially a country girl, and very old school. I google this music video almost every morning while I make my coffee. Yes, I know ITunes exists, but I love me some MySpace music videos! Top 8 baby!
"Nordstrom Shoes"- gulp, obsession.
"Brea Mall Hours"- Sunday night, I left the babe with my In-laws and was headed to the mall! Only to google this and find out it closes INSANELY early on the weekends. Bust. Off to Yogurtland instead...
"Yorba Linda Bowl"- Needed to check out their hours...my dirty little secret...I'm an amazing bowler..I know, I know..my mother must be SO proud.
There ya have it. You totally know me better now. Go check your history, you might have a good laugh. Better yet, check your friends or husbands! (ask first, of course...)
...."Hold on, let me check...(frantically enter ...what time does the sun set?....when does summer begin?...best meatball recipe...)..and viola! Instant gratification. Sound familiar?
So here it is, my Google search history for the past 72 hours, along with an attempt for an explanation. I didn't skip any, promise.
(Check yours, it's pretty telling..and hilarious!)
"Sean Lowe"- anyone who watches Bachelorette has googled this name. Next Bachelor anyone??
"Bachelorette recap"- Yes, I watched it, but I LOVE those hilarious sarcastic recaps (and spoilers) :)
"Pro bono"- Definitely knew what this meant in a past life, but had to google it before I used it confidently in a conversation.
"Exercises for 3 month old baby"- Needed to see if there are any fun ways to make little Reese as strong as she can be!
"Luke Bryan, Drunk on You"- I'm officially a country girl, and very old school. I google this music video almost every morning while I make my coffee. Yes, I know ITunes exists, but I love me some MySpace music videos! Top 8 baby!
"Nordstrom Shoes"- gulp, obsession.
"Brea Mall Hours"- Sunday night, I left the babe with my In-laws and was headed to the mall! Only to google this and find out it closes INSANELY early on the weekends. Bust. Off to Yogurtland instead...
"Yorba Linda Bowl"- Needed to check out their hours...my dirty little secret...I'm an amazing bowler..I know, I know..my mother must be SO proud.
SO PROUD of little sister, Haley. Marina class of 2012. |
![]() |
Wishing Dad Good Luck. 2 seconds later she screamed for him. |
![]() |
My Dad, sporting his fathers day gift..a new hat! |
For those of you who know me, I am obsessed with Dogs. Particulary funny pictures of dogs. Found this one on Pinterest with the caption "Bored? Draw eyebrows on your dog." Dying. |
Have a fab Tuesday (had to check my phone for what day it was....what would I do without it??)
JH
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)